That was the end of this sweet but virtual friendship. Shweta looked at a white sheet of paper lying across the bed. It was a sketch of Aarav that Shweta had made for him as a birthday gift. His loyal eyes seemed to make peace with Shweta’s grief. She felt extremely guilty to even meet her eyes with the sketch. She cursed herself to have disturbed him by saying all this, that too with exams over his head. She felt helpless and hopeless. Even her paper and pen seemed distanced from her on this sorrowful day. Everything of hers seemed to belong to Aarav suddenly. Ghost of loneliness took over Shweta as she tried to ameliorate herself with the broken pieces of her heart.
It was raining profusely. Shweta sat in a chair in the balcony of her room, where she stayed as a paying guest. There were other three roommates of her. She was enjoying her first rain in the city. Everything seemed fresh and alive. All the old buildings around her wore a sparkling new look, as if the rain took away their age. The roads seemed cleaner and smoother as rain washed out everything. Each tree seemed to have bathed in the rain to appear as tender as a sprout. This rain also seemed to have washed to cleanliness Shweta’s conscience. She felt fresh and all the guilt attached with Aarav had almost been washed away, if not completely. The rain along with its maddening romance brought a breeze of Aarav’s memories. This had its own micro rainfall in Shweta’s eyes. She missed him a lot. She never left his image and would always try to create an ambience of his presence.
Shweta had formed her own little world to which only Aarav belonged. Each night, she would talk a lot to his photograph, all the things she did that day. She spoke her heart out, all those things which she wanted to say and all those things which she couldn’t tell him actually. Many a times she would spend the whole night just staring at his image in her phone, falling asleep with the image open and then waking up to see his image again. Shweta had enclosed herself into this imaginary world of Aarav, to protect herself. It was quite elusive to think of her getting out of it.
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